- Comment on my entries. Don't be a lurker and just post once and never post again.
- Be tolerant of R-rated language, as I tend to use it a lot when I'm angry.
- I'll be sure to add you if you add me. I'm nice like that. ^_^
- I draw and put sketches up sometimes, so tell me what you think of 'em. ^^ I like to get comments and critiques, to make me work harder on my art.

Abide by this, and we shall be friends! Ohhh, such friends we'll be...

Chris Kattan is love.

Date:	2004-12-24 22:04
Subject:	Although it's been said, many times, many ways...
Security:	Public
Mood:	excited
Music:	"Baby, it's Cold Outside" ~Rod Stewart & Cher

Merry Christmas, to you! <3

Date:	2004-07-17 16:49
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	drained
Music:	"Sunburn" ~Fuel

"Sunburn" ~Fuel

The sky was dark this morning
Not a bird in the trees
And silence hung suspicious and anxious
Like a blanket covered scream
And you were gone
You were not there for me
And I cursed the sky and begged the sun to
Fall all over me
This life's not livin', baby
Livin' ain't free
If I can't find my way back to me
Let the sun fall down over me
Let the sun fall down
All my friends are searching
Quiet, desperately
Look into their eyes you'll see the faithless crying
Save me, save me, save me
And what are they to feel
And who are they to be
And what am I to do with, do with me, just let the sun
Fall all over me
This life's not livin', baby
Livin' ain't free
If I can't find my way back to me
Let the sun fall down over me
Let the sun fall down
Until my eyes cry out
'Til my head is free from doubt
'Til my lungs sigh right out
'Til I'm wiser
Let the sun
Fall all over me
This life's not livin', baby
Livin' ain't free
If I can't find my way back to me
Let the sun fall down
Let the sun fall over me
This life's not for livin', baby
Livin' ain't free
And if I can't find my way back to me,
Let the sun fall down over me
Let the sun fall down over me
Let the sun fall down over me
Let the sun fall down... over me

Man...I'm just not having that much of a good day...-_-'' then again, I never really do...-_o''

...Hah...I can shout that when I come home now...and frighten my poor, skiddish druggy of a kitten...^^;; I am a horrid little ostrich...X]

Technically, I'm not home at the moment, but back from my aunt's house. Right now me 'n' mum are up at me nanny's house, so...yea...*kicks a pebble* I RIPPED HOLES IN ME JEANS!! XD IT FEELS LIKE THERE'S A DRAFT UP IN HURR!!

...Also...

...Last night...

...I DROVE...

...AND I DIDN'T BUMP INTO ANYTHING...X3!!! Aunt Deb took me out on the dirt road she has by her house and I just DROVE...

...8D I wanna do it again. Real soon. T'was fun on a bun.

Also...I have a couple questions that maybe some people can help me out with...^^;; They're vampire questions...

1.) Can vampires bleed? (I'm not sure what to believe, I've heard yes and no...so...^-^;;)
2.) How long can a vampire go without blood? And what happens if they don't drink it, do they just...like...fall over and die a second time...? ^^;;;;;
3.) Which do you think is a better companion/pet for a vampire, a bat, black cat, or crow?

Yis...if peeps can answer even just one of these questions, it shall be greatly appreciated. ^^ Mucho hugs in advance. <3

Well...that's it for my boring life as of right now...so...TOODLES, ALL!! X3 *walks off flipping a coin and humming the Lupin III theme*

Date:	2004-07-13 15:45
Subject:	Whee!! ^^
Security:	Public
Mood:	bored
Music:	Dr. Phil on TV...XD!! -->I'mma LOSER!!<--

Opening credits:	"Teenage Dirtbag" ~Weatus
Waking up:	"Sunrise" ~Norah Jones
Average day:	"It's Alright, It's Okay" ~The Cranberries
First date:	"First Date" ~Blink 182
Falling in love:	"Falling in Love" ~Lisa Loeb
Love scene:	"Falls on Me" ~Fuel
Fight scene:	"I Hate Everything About You" ~Three Days Grace
Breaking up:	"Cup of Coffee" ~Garbage
Getting back together:	"The Reason" ~Hoobastank
Secret love:	"Phantom Lover" ~Groovelily
Life's okay:	"Over Your Head" ~Marvelous 3
Mental breakdown:	"Low-Fi" ~The Exies
Driving:	"Out of Range" ~Ani DiFranco
Learning a lesson:	"That's the Way it is" ~Celine Dion
Deep thought:	"Too Near the Sun (In Time)" ~Valerie Vigoda
Flashback:	"Time After Time" ~Cyndi Lauper
Partying:	"Cherry Lips" ~Garbage
Happy dance:	"Hey Ya" ~OutKast
Regreting:	"Breaking the Habit" ~Linkin Park
Long night alone:	"You Were Meant for Me" ~Jewel
Death scene:	"Sunburn" ~Fuel
Closing credits:	"Twilight" ~Vanessa Carlton

Your Life: The Soundtrack brought to you by BZOINK!

Date:	2004-07-12 01:08
Subject:	...
Security:	Public
Mood:	just completely sick.
Music:	Nothing...

...I just want to hug "you" right now...

...I wish it was yesterday...or a month ago...or a year ago...or three years ago...

...Then maybe this wouldn't've happened...

...Maybe I wouldn't be so scared...so worried...

...Maybe we could've started over new...and tried again...





I'm really sick of wishing, I don't know if praying's helping, my trying seems fucking useless...

I just want to hug "you" right now and tell "you" that I love "you," and no matter what happens to "you" or to me...

...That I always will...I always will love "you," no matter what anyone else says...

And if tomorrow should come too soon, I just want to hold on to what we've had since before anything bad started...

...and if that doesn't help, then I just want you to know...

...that I love "you"...

Truly. Madly. Deeply. Sincerely. With all of my heart.

I love you...<3

Date:	2004-07-11 02:33
Subject:	Oooh, new look ONCE AGAIN...
Security:	Public
Mood:	tired
Music:	"The Way" ~Divine Inspiration...MMM...techno-y...^_^

Put your hand in my hand,
and I'll show you the way,
through the tears and the pain,
and the fears and the rain,
I will take you...

Hm...the more I listen to this song, the more it reminds me of Misha-san 'n' Kotarou-kun...>.> ^^;; It just does...and it reminds me of my Matt'choo-kun, cuz he's the one that maked me listen to it in the first place...

...Yes...Pita Ten...great manga...go buy it now...NOW I SAY!!!

...Holy Batman, Batman!! I'm tired. I go sleepies now. Maybe sew a bit. *shrugs* Or draw, drawing is good.

Yis...

Date:	2004-07-09 18:45
Subject:	Ffffu--...whatever...
Security:	Public
Mood:	lonely
Music:	"Memory" ~Sugarcult

I hate feelin like this when I leave my Matt-kun...'specially since he started feelin sickly last night and it didn't go away before I had to say g'bye to heem...;-;

...I slept in the car all the way home, I felt so drained...XP

Lucy's here wif me by the monitor, takin a nap...mum wants to take me out for a little bit and do somethin tonight...

Matt-kunerz, if ya read this...thanks for the awesome week, I really really had a good time up in Long Island wif yew...and I already miss yew...*hugstightsniffles* AND YOU HAVE TO COME BACK UP HERE IN AUGUST, THERE IS NO OPTION!! YOU MUST!!!

Okee, to the people now, who are wondering what the HELL we did all week, hereitiz...

Sunday was 4th of July, and lemmeh tell ya, they have MANY MANY MANY MANY fireworks on the island...o_o We went to a little get-together with his mum 'n' dad 'n' brother, 'n' we had lots of fun and ate food and watched the Twilight Zone marathon...I LOVE TEH TWILIGHT ZOOOONE...yis. ^___^ Hehe, then when we got back home, Matt and I sat on the curb in front of his house and watched people get pissed off at the duds that they set off...XD The next day we went to the mall...IT WAS A HUGE MALL...O_O;; if you haven't noticed yet, I am not used to civilization...sooo yea...^^;; We taunted preps.

...Woo. XD I luvs me some o' them thar screamin' kids too, YA JUST WANNA SQUEEEEEEZE 'EM UNTIL THEY SUFFOCATE!! *gleeful grin* We also went to the aquarium, the AQUARIUM!! X3 I got to see seals and sea lions and sharks and sea horses and pet manta rays...=3 and they had SHARK FETUSES!!! WOOO!! XD They rocked.

...I'd have to say the best part of the entire week, was when we walked back to his house from the little carnival they had near him (which we went to twice and spent all our remaining money at XD). We bought ice cream sundaes and just leisurely strolled back to his house...and acted like asses along the way...and...TT-TT I miss my Matt-kun...*sniffles*

...;-; He must come back in August...it is not an option...it is a requirement.

...*skitters off to listen to "Deepest Blue" once ageen* (GO LISTEN TO IIIIIIT...IT ROCKS...<333luffluff)

Date:	2004-07-08 11:09
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	INSIDE JOKES...X3
Music:	"Accidentaly In Love" ~Counting Crows

This, is my convarsation wif me Matt-kun when we were being asses and drinking lemonade...my cup flew and uh...lemonade went everywhere...^^;;

Nikki: Awww, ya just made it go everywhere!!
Matt: ...............................Oh, HALF-ASS...

...
Iiiii think ya mighta had to have been there to find it amusing...but we couldn't stop laughing for...QUITE A WHILE...XD

Mm-hm.
I love my Matt-kun.
Anyone thinks otherwise.
They can go DRINKY-DRINKY FROM THE MILK CARTON!!

Hahaaaa, I love inside jokes. I love being here. It's fun, and civilized, and they have air conditioning and fast cable modems for their computers...

But most of all, I love me Matt-kun.
Yes, yes I do...<3
*swoodges him*

Date:	2004-07-07 14:16
Subject:	I speak.
Security:	Public
Mood:	weird
Music:	Megaman shizzat, YO.

I dunna wanna go home after tomorrow...

Abeh...;-;

*sniffles, skitters off to cleeng to Matt-kun*

Date:	2004-07-04 10:51
Subject:	En la casa de Mateo-kun. X3 WHEE.
Security:	Public
Mood:	silly
Music:	Fireworks outside HURR.

Yis...I am at Matt-kun's house...SHH, DON'T LET HIM KNOW THAT!! *looks to both sides, hides under bed again* Yes...I am typing this telepathically with my mind. I am THAT good. X] Lalalaaa...OH, HAPPY FIREWORKS DAY, EV'REBODEH!! *glompglomp* Yis, it is very very festive over hurr, there've been many many paisely and good fireworks. We never see fireworks up in the middle of nowhere where I live...;-; Hm. I must make plans to move here. XD For now, I hide under Matt'choo's bed and pretend he doesn't notice I'm here. Hehehe...>____>

I must draw something too. That has become my motto, I've noticed, "I must draw something." I say it like...every other journal entry, wow...o.o;; Yis, and we may just go swimmin' later too. YES, I KNOW, IT'LL BE DARK OUT AND LATE AND I'M GOING SWIMMING WITH A GUY...well, if it makes you feel any better, I WILL wear a swimsuit and I WON'T be doing anything but SWIMMING...e_e Jeesh...pervs.

Awww...Whose Line is over...XP We watched Funniest Home Videos yesterday night, twas a special, and twas funny. We also went to a party today and ate food and watched the Twilight Zone marathon that was on all dirn day...


...Yes.


We watch things.


Many things.


...COW GOES MOO!!!! COW GOES MOO!!!

Date:	2004-06-29 02:37
Subject:	*Yawn*
Security:	Public
Mood:	hungry

Well...I didn't really stick with the Ostrich icon...but I'm keepin it up anyways. This new one I like better I think...

...Still chipping away at my story, bit by bit...they're going to Eleanor's apartment...>.> You prolly have NO IDEA what I'm talking about...

...Yis...After today, Matt-kun be comin up. I still need to clean, go with my mum food shoppin, murder this pain in the ass kitten...*glares at the Lucy-ish one*...

I played DDR today...like...A LOT. O_O;; I was tired, and I needed a nap...^^;; By then it was about 8 o' clock. Me 'n' mum watched the Lost City of Atlantis on Disney. X3 I like the effex in that movie...

...Anyway...I've been doodling...>.> One picture I'm drawin is Chibi Usa (Rini) and Pegasus from Sailor Moon, and they's just being lovey and nuzzilng faces. ^-^ Tis cute...the other one is...just kind of demented...XD Sparkle does NOT like sailor scout uniforms...for fear of some demented psycho looking up her skirt.

THAT, MY FRIENDS, IS WHY PANTS ARE BETTER. :|

...Well...that's it for now...^^;; catch y'all later! <3

Date:	2004-06-27 20:22
Subject:	Yee-haw.
Security:	Public
Mood:	bored

98% of the teenage population has tried pot. If you're part of the 2% that hasn't, copy this into your journal.

Just came back from going out to din-din wif my old man...>.> it was not too eventful...nothing of global importance happened...

LALALALAAA...la. Hm. Matt-kun be comin to visit innnn...3 days. Yis, I is excited. =D WHEEEEEE!! <---excited/cookie sex noise.

Lucy is being hellishly bad, I have to sing at teh field days thinger next week, and dad needs to check his eek-mailses. O_o RAAAAAH...*glomp-a glomp* "Y'ALL BETTA NOT DISRESPECT MAH OSTRICH, YO!!"

...Mother is odd when she has wine...o.o;; 48 hours of the Munsters on TV Land...I go watch...^^;; *skitters off to do so*

Date:	2004-06-26 12:53
Subject:	OSTREECH!!!
Security:	Public
Mood:	crazy

Well...you might be wondering about my new icon...^^;; It's a long, LOOOOONG story...but supposedly...I'm an ostrich now...so...XD Yep...

Ostriches are pissy...o.o;; sounds like me alright! XD *runs off to peck at people and lay some eggs of DOOM*

Date:	2004-06-25 21:29
Subject:	More story portions from MY ASS TO YOURS!! :D
Security:	Public
Mood:	Must get home and DO STUFF!!!!
Music:	"Twilight" ~Vanessa Carlton

Eleanor stumbled into the garden, weakness abounding her with each step. She collapsed to her knees, gazing at the rose bushes before her. "White roses..." she said softly, reaching her hand out for one, yet she recoiled as the thorny stems pricked her hand. She looked at it in the moonlight, small blotches of blood dotting her palm and fingers here and there. She cursed herself at her stupidity, beginning to lick her hand clean of blood. Suddenly, she stopped, the familiar taste washing around in her mouth. There she was, weak, tired, and hungry for blood. She was completely disgusted with herself and what she had become. Tears filled her eyes as she looked up at the moon, now only a sliver in the cold autumn sky filled with stars. She closed her eyes tightly, letting the tears gush out of them and cascade down her cheeks to the ground. She did not cry, not in a frantic fury of helplessness. True, she felt completely hateful of anything and everything she had become, and what the vampires living in that castle had made her. Though, even with those things, she felt a sort of comfort in her, a completion. She hadn't felt the way she had in her entire life, it was a mix of both hate and love for herself. She didn't know what to do, yet she simply picked the sleeping, unopened roses (now being more careful of thorns), and crept quietly back into the castle, carrying them gingerly in her arms.

~"Twilight"

Heheeee...you like my writing, yes? Well...you may not...^^;; hopefully it sounds good...GO WATCH SAIKANO...O.O;; AND CRY!! *skitters*

Date:	2004-06-23 20:07
Subject:	I must rant/vent/rip on males.
Security:	Public
Mood:	MEN...grrrr...

...I...HATE...MEN...

...Well, let me rephrase that...

I hate MOST men. And I say "most" because I know a few, and only a few, of good guys. Ones who actually act like fucking HUMAN BEINGS. Other men just scare me or piss me off royally.

Why you ask?

Because they're annoying. They're whiney, they're horny ALL OF THE FREAKING TIME, they bitch if someone doesn't do something they want, and they're partially uncivilized. Now, before you start to think, "OMG NIKKI YOU'RE GAY NOW!?!?" let me just say that I'm STRAIGHT, I'm just speaking my opinion. Personally, I don't like people in general at all, unless they are close friends.

I just HATE having some guy walking past me behind me or something...I just have this horrible paranoia that he's going to GRAB MY ASS or something...and also, on the way home today from Wal-Mart, some guy pulls out in front of my mom, then looks at her like, HOW FUCKING DARE SHE DRIVE AT A PERFECTLY NORMAL PACE AND DRIVE BY HIM!? So my mother had to jam on the breaks, and this guy just gives her this fucking DIRTY LOOK...

...Also...>.> I can't hold up an intelligent conversation with guys. Either they don't want a part of it and just walk away, or STARE IN AWE at my BOOBS.

I don't know...maybe I'm just paranoid and I don't want another "Lewis Episode" going any time soon...X_x;; and it didn't help that for one reason or another I had a dream about him last night...scaring the shit out of me...

...Beh...I'm a bitch...deal with it...

Date:	2004-06-23 01:14
Subject:	._.
Security:	Public
Mood:	tired
Music:	Mom's drivel about cleaning...and nagging...X_x

Today was...eventful...^^;; Danielle and I had some fun up in Binghamton. She's gonna be livin' up thurr soon. I am going to miss her...SHE BETTER COME VISIT MEH.

...I also heard today that (you might have heard about it) a 13-year old kid died today. He had some muscular disease. I'd seen him on TV a couple of years ago...

...Strange...

...A lot of people seem to be dying lately...

...And I don't mean that just physically...mentally as well...

}~*

I'm almost ready to make chinese out of this freaking cat. Anyone want a kitten who is so energetic ya just wanna RIP HER HEAD OF...?

...I need to take pictures...my disposable camera still has lots of film left...

...I'm gonna save it for next week...*nods* I'll have some use for it then.

I've been thinking a lot lately...and really...

...I don't know if I belong here anymore...

Oh, good Lord above...X3 I'M ALMOST DONE WITH ONE COMIC PAGE!! Which I have been working on since spring break...X3 *is a lazy-ass* Yis...I still don't have a title for it either...^^;; Buuuut...these are the things I must work on...XD I might stick with my old plot (check my first livejournal entry for those details!!) or I might make a new one...either way...I still have to finish the cover page...

...I'm a busy little girl...

A week from Wednesday, Matt-kun is comin' up for a viseet, 'n' den I goin to his hizzouse. XD I also must make a poster...o.o;; Prolly gonna be of me comic characters or somethin of the like...^^;;

THIS LITTLE GIRL, RIGHT HERE...IS A HELLION...

...Matt calls her Pooty...XD


And here's a pic of her...stalking my kitty-cat Cleo...who is unsuspecting...XD

Cleo's been limping a lot lately...;-; we must take her to the vet on Thursday and see what's wrong with her...

...I must go perocupie the Lucy-ish one now...^.^;; bye byes!! <3

Date:	2004-06-20 16:05
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	...I feel like I'm gonna puke.

...So...it's Father's Day...

...I just REALLY want this day to be over with...this has NOT been a good day at all...

Well, first of all, we (me, my mother and father) were on our way to my grandma's house for a party. On the way, mommy and daddy dearest start arguing...so of course, that just kind of blows the entire point of going to that party over. For one reason or another...I start to CRY...I mean really, REALLY cry...which I haven't done in a while...I just feel completely and utterly helpless with all of this bull-shit anymore. We got there, and I just wanted to stay in the car. It took mom and dad, after much snapping at each other and coaxing me to get out, about five or ten minutes until I would get out of the car. I sat on the bank near the house and just cried. I felt like such a fucking asshole for doing it, but at the same time, I just felt like I DIDN'T belong there...at all...

After a couple hours, by which time I was calmed down, we all decided to go to the CEMETARY!! ^___^ FUN FUN FUN!!...well...it was to pay respects to my original grandfather...who died when he was still young...anyways...we get there, and walk around a bit, then drive back home...

...And wouldn't you know it...

GUESS WHO ARE ARGUING AGAIN!?!? Go on, guess...XD

...Does anyone have a spare room or something, where I could just...STAY for a while...? I don't eat a lot, and I don't take up that much space...I just need to get out of here...because I really don't want to be here anymore...

...I really dont...;_;